Week 13: 141.9 lbs, lost 1.1 lbs from Week 11
Week 14: none, no pressure!

I have a month left till graduation and I'm happy to be nearing the finish line.
Not so happy about my weight, but I guess that is typical me.

Weight gain and loss has been unpredictable and I feel as though I have only maintained my weight during this stressful time in my life.  Maintaining is not so bad, but as I reflect back on wanting to be 130 lbs by Graduation...I wonder if I set my goal too high for 3 months...is it unrealistic to really lose about 15 lbs in that short amount of time?

I won't lie, I am disappointed in myself for not trying harder.  But I am at peace for not gaining weight...i hope!  I think I was meant to feel 140 and be 140 at this time of my life.  A part of me just didn't want to be that big in my graduation photos for the invitations that will be mailed out this week.  I'm not vain, there's a lot of sadness in my heart when I think of myself as 140 and my mom only being 10 lbs heavier than me.  It hurts to feel so young and have so little control of my body.  It hurts more to feel so much pressure from someone so close.

I can't wait to graduate and get a job, living at home has damaged my self-esteem and I don't want to be one of those people that has everything and is still so unhappy with life.  


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